.Saturday, October 10, 2009@11:42 AM.
animore emo 2dae and i would hae cut myself.
stoopid thing to do but when ure sad,
it does not seem too bad animore.
alot things happened ytd.
i dunnoe hw to explain them.
maybe i would not even try.
if he rly betrayed me.
th onli thing i can sae is that maybe im not as gud as i think i would be.
but i would nbr brk my own rules.
family, girlfwens, money dhen guys.
but th thing is sumone told me sumthng depressin ytd.
th first bad news is tad my dad nids a operation (mentioned in last post)
th second is....
wel let me ask u (th person readin.)
between ure fam, fwens and guy,
hu cums first?
wel to me,
fam dhen fwens dhen guy.
but sumone suddenly mentioned tad i would love my guy more dhen mye fwens and fam.
i would love mye guy more dhen mye fwens.
i didn't noe wads th truth dhen.
wel,
tad person is always ryte.
i mean.
whye would i mess up my own world's rlues.
those re th rules tad hold up my world.
as a person. as a girl. as who im.
but nw it being messed up.
i dunnoe wad to do.
i gues th onli thing is to 斩草除根
i dun wan excueses frm myself.
it does not mean anithng does it.
maybe i wil hurt ppl.
maybe i wun.
maybe im hopeless.
but at least im gonna hold up my world.
i dun wan to die.
