.Saturday, April 12, 2008@10:44 PM.
third post of th dae.
last post of th nite.
this post is for BRYAN KOH SIEN WEI.
i dunnoe if ue care enugh to read,
but im ritin aniway....
bryan let me tell ue, hw much i love ue.and hw much i hate ue.th dae i ask 4 tym out,i revieved an sms frm a girlfwen.tellin me tt ue kissed another girl.i didn't care, but i hated ue.th second thing,my parents re givin me shitt abt exams and abt ue and me.i dun care, but i proved my love 4 ue.th dae tt i broke wif ue,was th dae tt my dad hit me.was th first tym tt i cried since th dae my brother died.was th first tym i felt so much pain.4 th first tym in my life, he hit me.4 th first tym in 4 yrs, i gort hit.th dae tt i asked 4 patch up,was th dae tt i cried and cried...was th dae tt i felt so much disappointment in ue.i tot ue would understand.but ue didn't even care do ue.ue dun care tt i cried.dun care tt i cutted.dun care tt i emo-ed.dun care tt i almost wanted to die.i love ue.yet ue dun care.yet ue didn't care.yet ue dun understand.and would nvr understand.nw, i dun hae th courage to stand in frnt of ue.and look into ur eyes. and tok 2 ue lyk i do b4.instead i would pretend to be irrtated. and walk away.i caused so much hurt in ue.i guess ue hate me.but i wan to start all over.i wan to hae ue back by my side.im a selfish girl are'nt i...all is abt ME ME ME.nvr was it abt ue.but ever since ue left me alone.i looked at th gifts tt ue gave me on th first month.den i would think abt ue,and cry...and cry...and cry...i love ue, and i wan ue back. do ue still love me?do ue still care?do ue still wan me?do ue hate me?dun ue care animore?abt th memories we had together.abt th things we donw togerther.abt th special-ness abt th places we went.specially THAT place.i love it thr. i wan to go thr again.nt alone this tym.but wif ue,lyk last tym.when we were together....
