.Saturday, November 24, 2007@9:04 PM.
is it reali mue fault? i dun noe wads wrong. y can't we tok lyk normal ppl t each other? do ue reali hate mue tt much? do ue think i wanna be lyk this? sumtyms i dun get ue. or r ue juz mental..to mue onli. i dun get ue. i reali dun. i tried to be fwens. i tried. n tried. i guess, i tried too hard. tts y ue hate mue bah. do ue? i tok 2 other ppl happily but to ue im so stressed out. afarid tt one word wrong frm mue might get ue angry, upset. ignore mue again. nw, im lettin of wad i once had. all memiories i put up th shelf once n for all. nvr to be taken down. guess is 4 th best aniway. i noe ue wun cum read blog. (i hope n wishes) so i can tok abt hw i feel wifout u gettin angry or wadsoever. this is why my heart breaks 4 ue gurl. cuz ue alway steal mue away frm my fwens. frm my heart. frm my mind. ure a nb. ue used mue dun ue? i trust ppl too easily man. i met ue n i died. hahas. hey babe. i mean it. i mean. all th dudes n gerls frm mue sch noe mue as th cheerful n firece gurl rite? hahas. ue shuld hae known better den mess mue life up. tts y frm nw on,( i noe ue will read mue blog) apple, she'll deal wif ue. john will help her. dun ue worry. worry abt urself babe. i trusted ue. &juz cuz of a BOII ue betrayed our trust,betrayed our feelings and used us. wad ue think we are? stupid? hahas. lol. rofl. cwl. man ure naive. apple n i both knew ue were lyin frm th way ue tok.babe, we noe ue inside out & outside in. dun think juz becuz we let ue do wad ue wan ue think we r no xcisin creatures. we're smarter nthen ue tot babe. tt guy...hahas. visit hiim nxt tym @ apple's house bah. YES. at APPLE'S house. he splited liao. pi tui liao. faster den u tot. hahas. idiot. we're testin him n he fell 4 it sia. NO. they nort havin sex but..they kissin their lips out. NO apple dun lyk it. YES john gonnna hit him. YES apple dumpin him. n YES i hope ue dump him b4 he does. ^^ i worry 4 ue.....pissed. alarm clock woke mue at 5. go jog.( yes apple...as i promised) den bathe liao go bck slp at 9+. damn tired. ytd 3sumthng slp. cuz so pissed n sad.WAD I DO WRONG?! den babe call mue at 10+. wake mue up to sae " whr is ur blog! " (delete liao lar...tio spam nort enoguh. gort hacked n posted... -.-) den tok 10+mins. go bck slp. switch off hp. sian. 2+ dad call mue go eat. dun wan. tio scolded. sae dun noe wad bad 4 health. wanna scream liao lar.!!! wan slp cannort. den ytd if nort 4 daddy i can play till mornin. orangeshark-.- lvl 10, 3%...diablo3 ^^ lvl up liao wohh! lvl 18, 65%...muahahaha.(apple midnite hunters we go play nxt tym...sry dar.cannort go liao~i no $$$ to buy ticket to gentin.father cut allowence cuz tt nite i 4am plus den cum bck>>>>no $$$=no goin out= more housework=tired out= freakin pissed=scoldins=cryin=emoin)hahas.long chain. muz break. lols. nitez tok 2 JF. felt happier. she ask mue JY! i muz! hahas. last tym rite, i gort ask her b4 lar. can a person change? i noe a leapord nvr changes its spots. but humans? a person? mue? she, so wise lar. hahas. as a fwen. nort oldie. (reminds mue of lynette. i miiiss her) she said sumthng lyk this..." can. for a person ue love alot...sure can de". i wonder she hae gort more xp den mue sia. haha. ever since Crystal & Diana(th sec4 de) go Aus to study; Mica go Eng study. All 3 is either nxt year cum bck or nxt month holi(thiers) cumbck .leave mue here alone in singapore...i veri loney! leave oso no present or sumthng to remind them off. at least mica gort msn. diana de i lost liao sia. her mom nvr sms mue. i dun hae her(mom) de no. wifout contact, hw can i tok 2 them? crystal msm is lyk NVR log in de. i miiss them! i wan c their faces. i wanna their hugs. their smile. their love. them callin my name. hw long muz i w8?! i hate waitin. i miss them alot. i reali do...can ue stop signin in n out?! ue distractin mue?! i so sick n tired of ue liao...continue i block ue den ue noe. ue wun wan tt would ue?!
alone but alive~hmm...i rather be DEAD! why muz it alway be mue hu misses things n ppl? i dun wanna. i wanna hae them by mue side. i wanna see their smiles n hear their laugher. i wanna feel their wamth n taste their love once more. they r mue family. i miss them~omg. i feelin emo again. NO! muz'nt cut. cannort cut. i promissed yee oon & lynette n crystal(overseas) and crystal n rachel n blackie n john n jie n mimi.CONTROL! MUZ CONTROL!
